Posted on 2007.06.08 at 18:29
Myuuzikk: Where is my mind? - Pixies
I'll start with the morning.
I left my house at 10:15am for a Doctors appointment at 10:40am,
We get there and I get prescribed 3 packs of trycyclen-lo, which is
what I've already been taking.
I also mentioned about a bloodtest because Im a veggitarian and
was curious about my iron levels--
So he gave me a form thingy to give to the lady at the biolab or
whatever it's called!
Cool thing about me, I have no troubles with needles!
So I was smiling the whole time and talking to her,
while watching blood poor out of my arm...
3 whole viles! IT LOOKED LIKE SO MUUUCCHH!
she gave me a snowwhite sticker for my bandaid~
I was really happy happy!
She was really nice too, that made me happy-
Considering alot of people that do things
Like shots or take your blood are either evil,
or just plain bitchy and mean~
So like, I'll get those test results soon,
He said that He'll call if anythings up, and just
not say anything if Im fine...
In other words, If I don't get a call, Im completley fine with my
iron levels! WOOT WOOT!
My moms also going to try these "stop smoking pills"
which are really complicated, so both my parents might quit smoking..
(Only way she can is if my dad does too)
Sadly, it's like 53 dollars for the starter kit, so
thats 100 dollars including them both. Oh geez!
Anyways, best part about today! BEST PART ABOUT TODAY!
Jessie came online and we started talking!
I mean, at first she was really mad- but I just answered truthfuly
And she cooled off, we've decided to talk on Monday at lunch
And then take it slowly from there, meaning im not going to her house
anytime soon--- We'll probablly just go to movies every now and then
durring the summer.
That and she'll be at the con!
So Im sure everything will be fine from here on!
Im excited to see how this all turns out.
PS: Flood isn't happening, Doctor said so. HAHAH!
Posted on 2007.06.07 at 19:30
I have no idea where to start!
It's just been a really crazy week or two.
I think I'll just start with yesterday.
You see, every school day I go and pick up Max right after I get off my bus right?
and we were sitting watching the news, and it was going on
about how it's already evacuating certain areas for flood.
I didn't know how bad the situation at the time was,
but I live in flooding area, So I was rather.... stressed.
I had socials first block, and I walked in to it almost in
tears I was so worried.
so I just put my head down the whole class
mostly because I didn't want people to ask questions,
and I just needed to think about things right?
Near the end of class I went up to my socials teacher
and I told him I couldn't get anything in till next week.
He started to yell at me telling me how disappointed he was
in me, and how bad a student I am and that I don't even care
anymore and haven't been trying.
And trust me, I've been trying really hard.
I don't want to fail.
It just seems no matter what-
If I get all my homework in and do really good on the practice
test, I almost flunk the real test cause it's THAT MUCH HARDER.
my mark either gets lower, or doesn't budge.
and it just kills you inside.
He kept going on about how bad I am,
and I just broke into tears- but he just kept going!
Hes not even one of those mean teachers,
hes really really nice.
But like- I told him I came into the classroom
just to stressed to do anything-- and he just responded with
"IM STRESSED TOO" and I yelled back " I MIGHT LOOSE MY FUCKING HOUSE"
Im bawling so hard I can barely breath and he just keeps putting
more on my shoulders to stress about.
But after that little mess I went and talked to a counciler and
she told me everything I needed to hear-
If it floods, the most water will be up to our knees.
and no matter what- we'll have somewhere to go.
and even if we were to lose our house, there
is emergency money they give us right away to
find somewhere new to live.
Im really not that worried about the flood again.
Im back to the "I doubt it will flood, but better to be safe than sorry"
Situation again.
So yeah.
But after school, I was still not in a GOOD mood... I was, meh.
But on my bus, some jerks were not THROWING, but WHIPPING paper
balsl at the back of my head.
First time, I ignored it.
Second time, I got a little mad, but still ignored it.
Third time, I whipped my head around and told them to "FUCK OFF"
Really, really, really LOUD.
....They stopped for a while, but the forth time...
I almost stood up and I just about screamed I yelled so loud.
"FUCK OFF IM NOT GOING TO PUT UP WITH YOUR BULLSHIT TODAY."
and they all were freaked out and sent to the front of the bus.
I swear to god if I knew who it was they would of
got that screaming right to the face.
Im not fun to be around when im pissed,
not mad, pissed.
Anyways, off the sad/angry stuff.
I was a little sad, but I kind of saw it coming-
Scott can't come over tomorrow because the flood threat,
I might see him next weekend then go out there on the 27th (the weekend after next)
but chances are we'll just have to wait till the 27th- which is the day after my last exam.
So today, I stayed home from school,
really- for no reason too.
All I did was start downloading some anime,
go on facebook, start writing this blood, chat with a couple people.
yknow, just chilled.
But I have been really interested in this one anime,
and I started downloading it.. well, 8 episodes of it. =P
Hopefully it will be done by tomorrow.
It's called lucky star.
see Here
Im acctually going to probably cosplay either
Tsukasa (short purple haired girl)
or Konata (Long blue haired girl)
THIS YEAR, instead of Rikku (FFX) because I need more time
for that one, and I want it to look really good.
I can't wait to start watching this tomorrow (or Saturday)
It seems like a really good show, and I find it absoloutley adorable.
If I like it, I'll make Scotty watch it too!
OH and I went down to see the water levels and take pictures,
I think it went down a bit... but not really.
I know it hasn't gone up, but im still a LITTLE worried.
Pretty high eh?
Well, im just hoping for the best.
And I just so happened to look down off the bridge, and I found something
That made me really excited!
Isn't he cute?
Hes a beaver... but when he swam away I noticed he didn't have a tail.
He either lost it... or it isn't a beaver?
Hahahah.
Oh well, I got really excited and ran home!
I love animals so much.
So yeah, Today was acctually pretty good-
And quite relaxed too!
And tomorrow I have my wonderful DOCTORS APPOINTMENT
to go to.
It's to get more pills and get a blood test to see my iron levels
because im a veggitarian and Dawna (Scott's mom) has been
telling me im unhealthy because my hands are cold, and that
means my iron levels are low.
But like, I doubt it.
I eat alot of veggitarian food that has ALOT of iron in it.
Like, I pay attention to that kind of stuff.
I think I get alot less iron when I stay out there though,
Because they don't have those foods ... and I ussually
stick to a diet of waffles, bagels, lasagna, and Kraft dinner
when im at Scotts. HAHAH!
My mom also said I might only have cold hands when im on my period,
because you lose alot of blood, and alot of iron goes with it.
She says she gets cold hands too.
But well, if im really not getting enough iron-
I'll just take supplements.
Anyways,
Im done-- nothing much else to talk about!
SEEYA!
Posted on 2007.05.18 at 16:41
Myuuzikk: Life on Mars -- David Bowie
.[[Life On Mars]].
It's a God awful small affair
To the girl with the mousey hair,
But her mummy is yelling, "No!"
And her daddy has told her to go,
But her friend is no where to be seen.
Now she walks through her sunken dream
To the seats with the clearest view
And she's hooked to the silver screen,
But the film is sadd'ning bore
For she's lived it ten times or more.
She could spit in the eyes of fools
As they ask her to focus on
Sailors
Fighting in the dance hall.
Oh man!
Look at those cavemen go.
It's the freakiest show.
Take a look at the lawman
Beating up the wrong guy.
Oh man!
Wonder if he'll ever know
He's in the best selling show.
Is there life on Mars?
It's on America's tortured brow
That Mickey Mouse has grown up a cow.
Now the workers have struck for fame
'Cause Lennon's on sale again.
See the mice in their million hordes
From Ibeza to the Norfolk Broads.
Rule Britannia is out of bounds
To my mother, my dog, and clowns,
But the film is a sadd'ning bore
'Cause I wrote it ten times or more.
It's about to be writ again
As I ask you to focus on
Sailors
Fighting in the dance hall.
Oh man!
Look at those cavemen go.
It's the freakiest show.
Take a look at the lawman
Beating up the wrong guy.
Oh man!
Wonder if he'll ever know
He's in the best selling show.
Is there life on Mars?
Posted on 2007.05.18 at 16:11
Moody-Mood: 
EEEEEEEEE!
Myuuzikk: David Bowie-- Life on Mars
Well things seem to be working out okay for me. =]
Im going tomorrow, Leaving the house at about 10:00am and
I'll probablly be getting there at about 11:30am.
Know where im going to stay?
Scotts house.
Im finally allowed to stay at his house again!
Thank you mom! Thank you Dawna!
I'll just have to prove that I'll be a good girl. =]
Which isn't hard, I've always obey'd her rules.
So happy. <3
Posted on 2007.05.17 at 21:10
It turns out I won't be going out to Richmond tomorrow
(friday)
The chance of me going tomorrow is so slim,
Only if the greyhound doesn't go on strike, my dad comes home early.
Both doubtful.
So I'll be going Saturday morning (probablly get in around 11:30)
Meaning I have to change plans, alot.
Oh well... I just really miss everyone.. and was really excited for Friday.
The only thing that really upset me was how my parents were acting,
My dad yelled at me because I was asking if he could take me to the train
in the morning... He didn't have to get -that- mad...
But pretty much more than half the things my mom said upset me,
She went on about how friends can pressure you to do things-
She doesn't understand that the drugs were my choice. From the first time to the last.
That I snap at her all the time, more then half the time im home I can't even talk to her!
Shes to busy playing poker to even look at me anymore!
The only time I even have a little bit of snappish in my voice is when shes telling me to go
To bed, I just say "I know".
Or like today and yesterday, where I happened to have pretty bad days.
My mom got really pissed at me today for example,
Because I was already in a bad mood and things weren't working out for me-
When I dropped sour cream all down the leg of my pants, I got rather upset.
And she got completley pissed off.
Then she went on about losing trust in me because I kept it secret
about me taking the pill. On and on about it-
She was overreacting about it and it really pissed me off.
It's like, dude- what the fuck? It's not that big of a fucking deal.
I know that she told me she could get it for me, but when I got it- Me and her
were having issues because of the whole drug thing and I just didn't want to
face her for anything.
I mean, sure I didn't see the doctor myself, but Max said there wasn't really anything
I would of needed to be there for?
I told my mom she can take me in sometime.
Sheesh.
And she thinks im going to go in and do drugs again,
Because my friends will pressure me into doing it.
FUCK, THEY DIDN'T MAKE ME DO FUCKING ANYTHING.
I don't let people tell me what to do,
I've grown up in a pretty harsh school enviornment,
Ever since I was little, I've been picked on.
I stick up for myself and what I believe in,
I express myself how I want to- Nobody has ever made me change.
I don't listen to them, and never will- Not even if they're my friends.
Oh well, I don't really care.
I've calmed down alot, I'll live through tomorrow.
I'll get everything nice and prepared and make myself all nice looking.
Get all my stuff packed, all my plans organized.
Scotts mom might even let me sleepover there again,
She said she'd think about it and my mom is calling
her tomorrow, let's just hope for the best!
I just wanted an extended weekend... Oh well.. =/
I'll still see everyone, and im still going back in.
It's been almost two months - I guess I can be pretty happy about it.
Fuck, things have been so complicated latley:
My friends being depressed and probablly having to take medication,
Parents being unreasonable about stupid things,
so called 'Friends' turning their backs on me because I made one mistake,
Being bullied at school about the way I express myself,
And just a whole lot more.
Things will get better...
Posted on 2007.05.16 at 18:48
Myuuzikk: Ce soir - Kyo
Today hasn't really been on my side.
The past couple of days have been amazing, so im not gloomy or anything about it-
But It's just.. really weird.
First off, lets start with School-
Today I happened to wear my kitty ears + Tail, and these girls were making fun of me,
no big deal yknow?
Then I head up this hill, and they're bugging me that they can see my butt in my skirt, and Max says
"If you don'tLike, don't look".. It's funny that she had to tell her that, twice.
Then they were calling my a Lesbian, and of course I tell them "Well duh, I am.. sheesh" and they yell 'Dyke' about 5
times as im leaving- whatever. They're nobody pot smoking sluts. =P That didn't bug me much, but
it's just sort of annoying, I pretty much completley ignored them. [as ussual]
Then I went to my friends class durring sewing so she could tutor me for math,
I was having trouble with some rather easy math problems (trigonometry, how much easier could it get?)
And I took off my kitty ears to be able to work without them sliding down my head.
I didn't notice until I left the class, but they had gone missing-
and me and my friends clearly remember them not being on my head or
on the desk, and definatley not anywhere on the floor (I was helping my friend look for a ring)
And well, it's obvious one of the jerks took them, I was really upset and skipped last block,
Mostly because I still wasn't ready for the test and my friend had borrowed my calculator.
On the way to Max's house, I noticed they were missing, and we went back to see if we could find them-
I interupted a grade 9 class, and let me tell you - the grade 9's are really horrible.
The second I say "I was wondering if you have seen my kitty ears, Mr. dirks?"
The whole class of bratty grade 9's burst out laughing- and the teacher didn't say anything (hes
kind of a pushover really.)
But a thing that cheered me up about that a bit later, my friend told me he told them not to laugh.
I wish I had more friends at school likethat, to many times do I have friends just kind of backing
off and not saying anything-
If one of my friends were to say anything even a bit rude to my friends in any way shape or form-
id tell them off.
you don't mess with my friends. :B
I love them to much.
I Also ended up getting my period a bit earlier then suspected, but this time-
It hurts like a bitch and I feel like throwing up- even more then it did before,
so the whole last block I skipped I was laying down with a tummy-massager
about to be in tears more then 3 times it was so bad.
Oh well..
atleast Ifound out later that my other teacher found the cat ears...
The bell on them is missing though. =[
Now, onto after I got home-
My mom ... shes been kind of snobby today.
You see, tomorrow.. thursday, Greyhound might go on strike-
and you all know that I use greyhound as transportation to see my friends in Richmond
(First time back in Richmond this weekend! well, it's supposed to be..)
And if they do, I won't really be able to go-
I asked my mom if I could take the train, but she said no because the
times it leaves are really early (latest is 7:30 am)
So I came up with the idea of calling her afterschool tomorrow and seeing if they are
going on strike or not, if they are- I would simply stay at Max's house the night,
and her mom could drop me off in the morning at the trainstation.
Not only is the train cheaper, but it's a shorter ride.
And closer!
But my mom said no.. I asked her why and she said "I don't need a reason"
And I thought that was just rude.
Anyways, moving onto something a little more 'gross' for some of you.
Since I've been taking birthcontrol- I've been having breakthrough bleeding.
Which is pretty much having a really really really light period for 2-3 months. (im already a month in
to birthcontrol)
And well, My mom was really confused at why I was bleeding that long, so I just flat out told her I was on the pill.
She kind of got upset.
Not because im on the pill- or because im having sex.
But because I got Max to get me it, and I didn't see the doctor myself-
Or ask my mom to take me in, because she told me she would.
So, shes a bit upset about that.
And she says I shouldn't be bleeding like that-
But the booklet/sheet says it happens, and the intarwebz doesn't lie!
Im hoping this weekend does happen though,
It's a long weekend (Friday-Monday no school).
And I haven't seen everyone for soooo long!
I have alot of plans I really want to happen, and I miss Scott like crazy.
Like always. =]
Oh well, all I can say is "It will be better!"
And I know it will, Sammi's feelings are always right
about things. =)
I'll keep you updated, sorry for not posting for so long!
Was having way to much fun. =P
ilu all. <3
Posted on 2007.05.06 at 20:51
Myuuzikk: Tu Es Foutu (Benny Benassi Remix) -- In Grid
So in the end, my weekend turned out to be pretty fucking awesome.
And im really happy now!
Stress is alot better (of course I still have some, but this all just made it alot better.)
Scott got to come over.
I mean, out of nowhere too--
Well, kind of.
Im pretty sure his mom let him come because of my email I sent her.
But anyways,
I got to see him and im unbelievably happy.
My mom even said I might be able to go to Richmond soon..
That is if it -doesn't- flood.
Which well, it probablly wont.
The weather has been pretty good (on off Sun and rain, that's what we want so the snow melts slower.)
So im hoping to go there soon,
who knows, maybe even in two weeks. (oh god that would be so awesome.)
BACK TO THIS WEEKEND.
So much fun, I finally got to play counterstrike--
LAN with Scott and my brother pretty much. Hahaha.
All in a different room yelling at eachother on our headsets and
shooting the crap out of eachother.... well... I mean,
Scott was on my team, but that didn't stop him. (GLARE AT SCOTT BUT NOT REALLY LOL)
Rocked out to alot of music (or Raved it up, whatever.)
Did some really awesome talking (I LOVE TALKING HURRR.)
And Just plain hung out and had alot of fun.
Lots of cuddles, tackles, wrestling and gam4ge going on.
And now, pretty much every weekend were going
to be playing counterstrike. oh god.
Oh man, and Scott gave me this song..
It's so awesome, and with bass- is like FUCKYUSSS.
It's a Techno song-
I have my sub woofer all the way up and it shakes my fucking house.
Im like, raving it up right now (but not really.)
<3
Anyways,
Im done rambling. Hahaha.
ily allz. pce outz.
Posted on 2007.05.03 at 20:34
Right now, tears are rolling down my face.
And one of the things that's on my mind is breaking something,
Perhaps knocking my door down- because I've never done that before.
Now, the past month has been really really stressful for me,
Mostly within the past week and a half.
With no friends, being all alone except for one friend,
which at the moment has her own problems and whatnot to
deal with, id rather not push anything on her.
Not to mention school has been completley hectic.
The counciler is pissing me off, and im not exactly happy with my grades-
Even though im passing, I know I can do better.
I mean, I was doing so much better and getting my homework done.
But then all this fucking shit happened and all my hard work has
pretty much gone to alot of waste.
That's fustrating.
Then theres the fact that Scott's mom has been a real fucking bitch to
Scott, made his birthday really shitty- and hes pretty fucking depressed right now.
They might even put him on MEDS, and for FUCK SAKES I don't like that FUCKING idea.
I despise those kind of meds.
Back to Scotts mom, She won't let him come out for one weekend,
and it's been a fucking month-
not to mention I have fucking flood warnings where I live--
So that might make it two or three more weeks to I see him..
That's close to two months away from him.
I can barely handle a week with this stress.
You have no idea, I mean-
If I had written this entry a short while ago-
It wouldn't of been very pretty whatsoever.
Im still in tears,
I just. Can't handle any of this right now.
My life is shitty right now-
And noone and nothing is helping.
Esspecially Dawna,
I mean, just -one- weekend.
Is that so hard to ask for?
Posted on 2007.04.30 at 20:13
I had a great weekend,
I'll explain when I find my lost pictOOrs.
lulz.
And By the way.... sorry boys no girls sex.... this time.
Posted on 2007.04.26 at 19:31
Im officially back to my normal self. =]
Posted on 2007.04.25 at 18:30
Scott talked to me today about something,
Something I was starting to wonder about as well.
About how I act more like a girlfriend over Bestfriend-
Im way to clingy and Im always 'ILU ILU ILU'.
I really need to get back to being the Bestfriend like
before AS WELL.
I don't think it will be much of a problem,
I've been piecing my life back together and
one more thing wont hurt.
I think my relationship anxiety is completley gone too.
Thanks to Scott, he told me all the things I needed to hear.
So, I won't know until I try-
Let's see how all these things work out when Scott comes and visits me.
More Bestfriend, like before.
Good times.
Oh how I missed them,
Im so glad Scott helped me realized how bad Iwas getting.
Wish me luck,
Things seem to be looking up all around. =P
Posted on 2007.04.25 at 17:18
I THINK I'VE CHANGED JUST A LITTLE.
IN A GOOD WAY OF COURSE,
TODAY I'VE REALIZED ALOT.
YAY.
Posted on 2007.04.24 at 21:14
The last blog entry sounded so much like a song,
I kind of finished it off like that.
I think I've become interested in writing songs!
I've always wanted to get into music in some way...
Just never really been able to.
Hows that sound?
Hm. =]
Posted on 2007.04.24 at 18:35
It's not that I don't believe you when you say things,
It's that im worried Im going to get hurt,
and im worried im going to hurt you.
Past experiences bring issues I wish I could explain,
but it's just a fear building up inside.
Just tell me it's okay and hold me,
Reassure me and I will be okay.
Just tell me you'll always be there,
Reassure me this is forever.
I know im not in the way,
I know im not just a nuissance.
But I keep convincing myself over and over,
That im just a problem waiting to happen.
Just don't take this the wrong way,
I don't want things to fall apart.
All you have to do is always be there for me,
and I'll pull through.
Just tell me it's not true,
Reassure me that im yours for the keeping.
Just tell me im the one,
Reassure me this is forever.
Hold me and tell me it's okay.
And that you love me, forever & ever.
Posted on 2007.04.23 at 23:26
Hootttt no?
Posted on 2007.04.23 at 22:21
I really really miss you;;
Posted on 2007.04.22 at 21:01
Im not pregnant and im on Birthcontrol.
Im getting a cellphone soon [Aldergrove number].
And I love Scott so fucking much. =]
Posted on 2007.04.19 at 17:55
Me and Scott have been together a total
of three months now.
Today is our 'anniversary'
Hehehe.
I always make such a big deal about it,
never really mattered for anyone else.
I called Scott for 45 minutes, and he called me back
for another 25 (had to leave early)
We had cute discussions about
everything. <3 hehe.
Im so excited that it wont be long until I get to see him!
It's only two more weeks really.
well.. hopefully.
Depends on if his mom lets him-
she can be a cow,
Shes been accusing him of things he
hasn't done! It's annoying.
But everything will be fine, I'll get her to make
him take a drug test, so that she knows hes been clean,
and so does my mom.
Were staying that way, our
relationship is to special
to screw up with drugs!
Im also, well, half-ungrounded
Im allowed to go to Max's tomorrow,
but she hasn't decided if I can sleepover yet.
I hope I can...
I mean, she should trust me.
That was harsh, I wouldn't put myself through that again.
Ugh.
Anyways,
This blog isn't really... that interesting.
I'll stop now.
ilu all bye. <3
Posted on 2007.04.18 at 23:02
She's getting rather fustrating.
I mean, im sitting there trying to have a nice -normal- conversation with her,
And starts with the cheap shots again.
"So all your friends are in Richmond now?"
"Yeah.. pretty much always have been."
"With all the druggies..."
"MOM. THEY AREN'T ALL LIKE THAT"
"Well sorry.. "(Sarcastic with a shrug)
"Hows Scott doing?"
"He's doing fine as far as I know... His mom is
picking little fights with him abouts drugs though,
Accusing him of it when hes clean"
"People tend to lie.."
"Mom. He's clean- and he wouldn't lie to me."
"People lie when they do drugs to cover it up"
"HE'S CLEAN AND WOULDN'T LIE TO ME."
ME = EXIT ROOM.
She says that she didn't mean it the way that it came out,
That all she is - is worried.
But I know all she sees in me and my friends now is 'Drugs',
I've put all that behind me now, Me and most my friends are clean now- Including Scott.
She just keeps bringing it up and it PISSES ME OFF.
I get the thought going through me head that I LIED TO PEOPLE, I MADE PEOPLE WORRY,
I FUCKED MY FRIENDS OVER, AND I JUST PLAIN SCREWED UP.
I don't like things being pushed in my face over and over like that.
It's just really fustrating, and kind of upsetting in the way of, I get a little depressed to tell
You the truth.
I've fucked my life over just a little.
So, I guess in the end this is me bitching about myself-
Cause it is my mistake.
And I know what my mistake was, So stop rubbing it in my face for fuck sakes.
ugh.
Posted on 2007.04.18 at 21:31
Myuuzikk: MSI
I've calmed down by now,
But every now and then I get really paranoid that im pregnant.
I mean, I see the symptoms and I kinda get freaked out.
But im sure im okay, I don't think I would of had those symptoms of
pregnancy yet, I don't think id be that far in...
But who knows, my period as is- is barely noticeable.
Yeah, I barely have my period, I only have to use tampons for about
3 of the 7 days (approx)
I don't ussually get cramps or anything either... I mean once in a while
I do, but next to never.
I should be getting my period soon, but it has yet to show up..
I tend to notice that my period jumps back a couple days (Example: Period one month will start on the 15th,
Then the next month it will start on the 17th, then the next month will start on the 20th).
So im going to give it one more week, and if I don't start- Im going to take
a pregnancy test and hope for the best.
But If I am pregnant, I don't really know what to do.
I think I would keep the kid, Abortion is cruel, and so is seperation.
I just don't think I could do it.
We'll see what happens IF I get pregnant.. or am.
It be the weirdest luck too, I just got some birthcontrol today.
My friend Max went into the clinic and got me some, I have enough
to last me two months, then after that im going to get my mom to get me some.
She already knows im having sex, just since that little issue, I can't really face her... for now.
In other news!
Me and Scott have been together for 3 months TOMORROW.
Yes, an Anniversary (I get all giddy every month for some reason.. funny, I've never
done that before Hahaha.)
Maybe Scott will spend the day talking to me more somehow,
I mean, It's no BIG deal that it's our anniversary, I mean, It's just been one more month haha.
It's a small deal, and small things mean alot to me.
I mean, I just look back at our relationship and smile.
I remember that when I told him that I might of had a crush on him,
that we could try for a little while and see if it would work.. cause I wasn't sure.
Im so glad that I told him how I was feeling, and that he felt the same.
Such an Amazing experience!
I have some extra change, I could give my mom a dollar so I can call him!
(Special number for longdistance, a dollar for 45minutes, 5 cents a minute after that-- and you can
win free calls if it jingles!)
Eeee!
Such an exciting life.
Hahahha.
....Im going to name my first girl Kirstyn... according to Scott.
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